What happened is that I've sewn a lot of clothes, more than enough to meet the criteria although one more garment, particularly with beading, would finish it in "style" except I don't want to. I don't want to sew another garment on this theme. I don't want to bead. I don't want to put on the outfits, figure out my camera settings, set up a backdrop, and take and compile pictures. And I don't want to be judged and voted on. That doesn't feel like the right spirit to me. So one day before the deadline, even though it's completely doable, I quit - LOL.
What I really wanted to do was work on a bra for my daughter. I've been thinking about her a lot lately, missing her, wishing she didn't live so far away. When the power came back on, that's what I did and it gave me a headache!
Not to name names but I won't be dealing with this company any more. When I opened the package there was not enough yardage of the cup fabric to cut even one frame with the direction of greatest stretch going the right way never mind the five I'd been assured of. On the other hand, there is more than enough of the band fabric. Perhaps they got reversed. I don't know. I do know that there is fine cat hair on the black fabric and a really strong perfume (musk) smell. I'm allergic to cats and I'm really allergic to musk.
Since there wasn't enough yardage, I put the cup fabric in the laundry room, cut out one set of bands and put the rest of that fabric in the laundry room assuming that the musk smell would dissipate from the remaining supplies. It didn't. It's in everything only now that I've started, the bra can't be washed until it's finished. As I cut each trim, the rest goes in the wash but the smell is staying. Luckily, there's only the stretch trim and the closures left to finish.
This bra is meant to be a sample to see how well the sizing fits and what adjustments need to be made. I wanted a firm fabric so I used a stretch taffeta for the frame and cups. It's a remnant that I picked up in a dance academy, originally intended for costumes. It looks pretty good with the black band fabric and trim. If the bra fits her, it'll be pretty and if it doesn't, it's not a great loss.
Smells aside, I'm having fun. I made two bras in the workshop last fall and this is only the third one I've sewn. While it's not perfect, my skills are advancing. A few more and the flow should be committed to memory and come to my hands more easily. I love when that happens. That's the point where creativity kicks in. To be creative is one of the main reasons I sew.
Why do you sew? Since the first time I sat down at a sewing machine, fabric has been my primary medium. Over the past thirty five years, I've sewn fashions, then textile art, then fashions again and while it's a nice bonus to get a wardrobe or an art piece for myself, that's not why I sew. It's not even for practical reasons like fit or economy although those too are a nice bonus. It's because I LOVE TO SEW. It consumes me.
I think in fabric. I love taking the parts and pieces, putting them together, and creating a new whole. Only, it's not enough for me to crank out one garment after another especially if they look alike. Automated sewing is boring. I need to be interested on an intellectual and a creative level. Often that interest comes in the form of a question.
For example, I'm making this bra for my daughter because her size is difficult to find, expensive, and typically available only in boring white and beige. The question is can I make a bra that will be supportive, inexpensive, and pretty? Once I have the sizing correct and the flow of sewing memorized, the possibilities are endless. They tickle my mind. I become aware of things like the recent Lane Bryant ad, which apparently some channels refused to run because in their opinion it shows too much cleavage. Since I've seen a lot more cleavage in other ads on non-plus size models, that judgement occupies my mind too but... back to the subject...
The bra's shape becomes a blank canvas which is true of all garments. Each one is an opportunity not only to be creative but also to perfect current skills or learn new ones. Yesterday, while I was working on the bra, my mind was busy with the forward shoulder question. I'm not interested in angling my shoulder seam forward almost an inch. I don't think that will look "normal". I'm also not interested in skewing the sleeves and most of the adjustments I've read about do exactly that and it's certainly what happened when I re-inserted the sleeve the other day. Since big names have developed those techniques, I could end up going in that direction however, I have an idea for the adjustment that I think will work easily without those issues. I just need to try it and I will soon. It's become the thing that I want to do next, my question of the hour.
THAT is one of the things I love about sewing. That it occupies my hands and my mind, makes me pay attention to details in the world around me, helps me to think outside the box, and develops my creative skills including thinking, organizing, resolving, comparing, and evaluating. It's a huge and satisfying energy force in my life. I can't imagine what people do with themselves who do not have a similar passion. Being creative permeates my entire life and exits through sewing.
Even overnight, the smell didn't dissipate enough and it's taken me a lot longer than normal to write this posting because my head is pounding. I feel like I haven't said what I wanted to say as wonderfully as I wanted to say it. However, I'll finish the bra this morning, wash everything, air out the studio, and decide what's next. It'll be whatever interests and amuses me because one of the reasons I sew is to have fun.
Talk soon - Myrna
Grateful - washing machines
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Personal Growth - Have you ever become aware of a feeling that was growing just below the surface in your life, there but not recognized? I've realized in the last few days that I am angry at diabetes. It surprised me because of all the things that can happen to a child, diabetes is manageable. It's far preferable to the forms of cancer they tested him for when he was diagnosed. How hard that would have been. And even so, it is taking over my life, consuming copious amounts of time, money, and energy, and filtrates into every thing. While I don't physically have diabetes, as the primary caregiver, I emotionally do. It affects every single decision I make. I'm so angry that I don't even want to talk about it. I just want to ignore it and make it go away and of course, I can't and it won't. Oh joy - something else for me to figure out - VBG.